An adult model and social media influencer, Neyleen Ashley, has revealed why she has chosen to be celibate.
The 34-year-old model, who has 3 million followers on Instagram, has sworn not to have sex again because no man deserves to sleep with her.
She said she finds real-life sexual encounters infuriating because the men she meets are only interested in her body, not forming real connections.
Neyleen, who reportedly makes about $55,000 monthly on OnlyFans, said she came to this realization after her last breakup.
‘I decided to be celibate after my ex told me he didn’t want to be a father or a husband, and he wasn’t living his truth,’ the model told Nude PR. ‘I found myself having to scramble for a place to go, after leaving his place, and having to go to work and take care of my two kids, 11 and 15, while enduring heartbreak.
“The breakup and pain I endured put such a bad taste in my mouth about sex. Now the enjoyment and euphoria I once got from sex is gone.”
She revealed that her boyfriend ended their relationship shortly after she experienced a miscarriage, a time when she needed his support and understanding the most.
Broken by the incident, Neyleen, who opened up about being a ‘recovering sex addict’, vowed to remain celibate and not give her body to any man.
“I was four months into my pregnancy with a baby girl, I even had a gender reveal — but I lost the baby at month four,’ she said.
“Less than a month later, still bleeding from the miscarriage, my ex told me he didn’t want to be with me anymore.’
She said this experience makes her worry about who is sleeping with, and their intention towards her.
“I’m afraid of people that just want to use me for sex, and never get to know me as a person, or my heart,’ she said. ‘I believe that energies get transferred through sexual intercourse and throughout the last few years, sex made me feel empty afterwards.
Never fulfilled, never loved… I felt like a rag doll.’
I was a sex addict for a long time. I couldn’t leave the house because I was at home masturbating and had to have sexual release multiple times a day, if not, I just couldn’t function.
It felt like a cigarette. I had to take a puff off, or I couldn’t go about my day without my fix.
That also came with the attention I was trying to receive from men, the sexting, the pictures back and forth, the dopamine hits I got from successfully pursuing them.
But still left me starving, because I was settling for crumbs in people, instead of loving myself.
Now I only love myself – in every way – I’m practicing self-healing, self-love, and self-soothing, and giving myself the energy I previously gave to others.”
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